Archives for category: Video

* I sense immediately that this environment is the most challenging I have encountered yet, to feel into the connective relation with Jens and the surrounding people. I note the sound-scape created by voices, movements, vehicles, construction, camera shutters, and feel into this collective hum.
*What I sense prevents us from establishing clarity in this space has to do with the movement patterns and agendas in the space, which are very transient.  There is arrival, then posing with a frozen expression for photographs, then leaving. I sense a kind of vacant presence of the people, perhaps because for the most part, there is no memory-relationship created in this place. Rather, there is a memory manufactured – by virtue of video or photograph which captures the site these visitors ‘achieved’ on their trip, kind of like one of many destination items on a “to do” list which are ticked off when collected or done. This “memory” then goes to reside in a slideshow or album or other repository. I sense there is not much residual presence or imprint from the majority of the visitors which results from the lack of any memory-relationship created. In contrast, to walk through a cathedral or any sacred place of worship creates a residual presence, and collects in the space over time along with all other experiences there, and can be sensed very strongly. This is prayer, hymn, upliftment, ecstasy, grief and many other things reaching to the beyond from the heart and soul. How strong that is. As another example, the museum setting collects this residual presence, as well. There is contemplation, learning, provoking, interaction happening here. It is this imprint that we as performers in these spaces tune into. What has happened and is happening in these spaces/places shapes the imprint: and this is in large part because of the quality and nature of attunement and attention of those present in the space.
* I reach for the natural elements as a way to connect into the space on a deeper level. This is a place on this earth and it is exposed to the elements of nature. I sense the wind is my anchor here. Unseen itself, it causes movement and sensation that lets us know its strength, temperature, direction. When I feel the wind on my face and hands, I am simultaneously sensing myself and the wind. It is through this element that I am able to finally feel and trust into the space with Jens.



* Jens and I must be close – touching really – to begin this journey. We need to feel and resonate with each other’s breathing and groundedness to gain enough comfort in creating distance without losing each other. We relate to each other mostly with sight, as the space is too large and with many people crossing through it (and we are perhaps not enough related [a physical warm up together would have been best for this kind of environment] or amateurs in this work) to do it only just by sense.  The sound is a constant murmur that swells up and dies down sort of like the tides, and I sense this the most when I become aware of the contrast that it is either softer or louder than before. there is much space above. I want to use it, to bring this sense of expansiveness to those walking on the ground.  I breathe vertically through myself to capture this feeling and share it. I notice the clusters of people, their pivots, pauses, strides and direction-ness.
* Jens and I need to be clearly related points in this mass. we are creating sacred energetic geometry, even if it is the simple form of a line.
* I radiate in all directions from my heart. I am safe and related in this space. Can you sense this, passers by? Can you know it in yourself?
* We make a sound together, Jens and I. It is very much about the engine-energy in this place and is anchoring.  I like this sound we feed our breath into. We turn around our sound. It may not be heard, but perhaps sensed by those around us.

* I am feeling all my senses open to receive from the artwork, an element that will reach me in an inspired way to embody and amplify in the space in which I am walking, relating to Jens, and moving through space. He says to trust, so I trust and feel into all my senses internally that for me allows the expansion into this attentive and meditative field.

* I feel strongly certain elements as I consider them inside myself: the way the painter has made his figures outline not with distinct lines of color or edges contrasting each other,  but a smudged, cloudy, fuzzy, indistinct interface between figure and environment. I am captured by this feeling of where my own boundary is, how I can extend my attention and vibrations beyond the surface of my skin. I embody this as I continue to relate to this artwork and to jens and the people mingling by. i try to see other people’s body edges as soft and blended, like in the painting. i imagine my own body boundary is like this, soft and blended with the environment and that i can send my self out beyond the distinct limit of the skin containing my body. I wonder how others will sense this? Perhaps not only as a perceived sense of the physical or perceptual realm, but as a corresponding deeper message about inspiration that you can expand yourself beyond your limitations, reach out a bit further than you think you can.

* The silky pink satin of the large, embellished skirt mesmerizes me. the way the sheen and drapes and shadows are drawn. i imagine i am touching this material with my hands, running it over my skin…then i want to become the sense of cool, silky, smooth satin. i transform into this and see what happens around me.

* somehow, jens and i have backed up slowly and at the same time from different directions to sit comfortably next to each other on a viewing bench. i was not aware how we got there, but the field of energy sensing must have guided us there exactly in that way.

* the sphinx to the right of the temple: this draws me in, and I am relating to this regal feline as i approach it. the couple taking pictures with the sphinx must sense this line of energy is happening between us and it must happen uninterrupted, as they move to the side a bit as i approach closer. what is this resonance we are creating? how is it felt? how can we know? we cannot. just trust. do this as a catalyst, as a transformer, an energy node for others, and that is enough.